My Brandi Boo!!!

About the most difficult thing to do this far in my years of being a mom has been letting this vivacious crazy, beautiful, strong, happy, spiritual, amazing, funny, bubbly, tender, gentle, careing, etc. etc. etc. daughter of mine move away to college..........
It pulled at my heart strings so hard i was sure i was gonna break.    The battle that goes on inside is a crazy hard one,  knowing that she needed to grow and experience things that only moveing away from home could give her, and also knowing that i would miss her crazy fun, bubbly personality being in my home EVERY day!!  
Even now as the tears are rolling down my cheeks, i wouldn't trade it for anything,  She is growing so much on the inside learning who she is, what she values, what she wants her life to become and most of all, self confidence and self worth.
I am so thankful that i got to stay at home with my kids as they were growing up, I am very lucky to be able to say that i did try to enjoy every minute with her when she was little.  ( Im still really really sorry about the whole easy bake oven incident, but im just not a good baker not matter how "EASY" the box said it would be).   But my arms still ache to hold her, comfort her, and fix the owies that she gets.   That will never change.   Takeing a tiny step back, watching her find her wings to fly has been an amazing experience!!!!  

Changeing

I never really gave much thought to how much life would change as i got older.   How everyone in a family changes, they make their own paths, they choose which way they want to go.  They decide for themselves whats important to them, what their priorities are.  And no matter if we agree or disagree it is their choice.   Sometimes those paths cross, go side by side, or just completely go in opposite directions.   No ones path is the same, and even destinations and goals are different.   Their are plenty of paths that end, hopefully, in the presence of our Heavenly Father.   There is no way to follow a perfect path, there isnt one, but sometimes we need to change our course so that we can be happy and allow ourselves to be all that we can be.   Following a path for someone else, isnt being true to ourselves.   No one is responsible for our happiness in life.  I have truely come to believe that you cant be a positive in someones life unless you find that inner peace and happiness that God wants us all to possess.   When we stop letting everyone elses opinion of us effect how we feel about ourselves, only then can we love who we are and be what we know our spirit came to this earth to be.   People change.

Yay!!!!   now I can post something....... not that it will be interesting but hey at least i know i can do it....

i have tried a dozen times to post something on here and it wont let me i am getting a little upset i hope this one works

Basketball boy...

Stets made the freshman basketball team this year and it has been a riot to go watch him play. Althought it is way fun to see him make a shot or stuff someone or grab a steel, what is more fun for me is to see the way he acts with his team mates and how he deals with frustration.... im so happy that he is mentally on the court "with" his team. And realizes that even though he really really loves the game, and that a win is always best, that it is just a game. I need to take some lessons from him cause sometimes i forget that it is just a game and i get all caught up in the yelling and cussing.
I especially have a hard time when he is getting some elbows thrown at him i just wanna go punch some kids.....see im getting all caught up right now :) Stets always tells me "Mom you just need to calm down" and then i get the big bear hug he always has for me. What a great young man he is turning into. Love ya bud!!

RIOT!!!

PHOTO'S OF BOO

What a riot!!! never really tried a "photo shoot" before, I had a riot, Brandi on the other hand, didn't. O well some times you have to just suck it up and take one for the team....... No, she was a good sport about it, and i do think she had a little fun even though she wouldnt admit it!!!