Something I think about alot!!

I'm not sure where i heard this but i sure have thought about it alot, life is 10% action and 90% reaction. The more I think about it the more it seems to be true.
No matter where we go or what we do we are chooseing the way we act or react. And more times than not what we do effects someone else. Then it is their choice on how to act or react.
We can think we are doing the nicest thing for someone and depending on how they choose to react towards what we have done can, in their eyes, make it nice or nosey or inconsiderate or silly or a number of things.
I know for myself that I do it backwards most of the time, I assume what all the reaction "could" be and it keeps me from doing the action. This is a hard thing to change, i keep telling myself that if i do something with good intention it will be ok because i can not control the reaction that will come from it.
Anyway a little deep but I just wanted to share......

Valentines Day!!!!

Ok so V-day, is to me like Christmas is to some!!! I love it!!!! 10 days to go... I love you Joe!!! and I love loveing you too!!!

Happy Vlaentines day peeps!!!!

Not ready for....

My boy to be involved in high school athletics, so much politics involved, and i'm so non political :( Because like it or not, it is full of it. It always has been and it always will be. Its hard to see kids, give it their all, and because of a last name or who knows who, determines their playing time and position. It really doesn't matter unless they are extremely talented. Here and there you get a great coach who coaches for the kids, wants them to become better people. Wants them to be successful on the field (court) and off. Its few and far between, and maybe he will be able to have an experience like that, who knows. I just had to vent, write it down, get it out. Im good now, leave your comments about how you feel, I would love you to share....

A New Year

Wow, 2010. I remember being little and thinking - if i live to the yr 2000 im gonna be old-Funny how the preception of time changes as we get older. I have been so blessed with health through the years, this past year my life has been touched by those who haven't been as fortunate as me. I wonder, what would I do if I were told that I only had months to live. Several things go through my brain, spend as much time as i can with my hubby and kids, make the best of those moments by creating peace, not focusing on all the world has to offer, play card games with my kids even if they thought it was corny, i would be in a picture or two, because after all, they know whats on the inside and to heck with the outside, i would give them a record of my smile. I would tape myself singing what i sang to them everytime i rocked them so their kids could hear. needless to say, there is alot i would do. My next thought, why wait? Why should it take someone giving me a time limit to do these things with and for my family? DO TODAY WHAT YOU WANT TO SPEND ETERNITY REMEMBERING!!! Im gonna work on this this year.......

Tests...

Today I am thankful for the tests that I have been given, because if I were given some of the tests that others have been handed, I'm pretty sure I would fail..........

music....

I love music! It speaks directly to my heart! I think i will start posting some lyrics to some of my favorite songs. I think the ability to write thoughts, feelings, beliefs, fears, emotions, experiences, wishes, lessons and loves and put them to music is a great gift! I am so thankful for the gift of music .

I have a few friends going through very difficult times and i know several children who have disablilities, some severe and some not so much. It brings this song to my heart.

This song was given to me by my favorite Seminary teacher of all time, Brother Shelton. He saved my life, and I'm forever greatful........

The Test

Tell me friend, Why are you blind?
Why doesn't He, who worked the miracles, send light into your eyes?
Tell me friend, If you understand.
Why doesn't He with power to raise the dead just make you whole again?

It would be so easy for Him,
I watch you and in sorrow question why,
Then you, my friend, in perfect faith reply,

Didn't He say He sent us to be tested?
Didn't He say the way would not be sure?
But didn't He say we could live with Him forever more, well and whole,
if we but patiently endure?
After the trial, we will be blessed,
but this life is the test.

Tell me friend, I see your pain.
Why when you pray in faith for healing, does the crippleing thorn remain?
Help me see, if you understand.
Why doesn't He who healed the lame man, come with healing in his wings?

It would be so easy for Him.
I watch you and in sorrow question why?
Then you my friend in perfect faith reply,

Didn't He say He sent us to be tested?
Didn't He say the way would not be sure?
But didn't He say we could live with Him forever more, well and whole,
if we but patiently endure?
After the trial we will be blessed,
but this life is the test.

Tell me now, why must you die?
Why must your loved ones stand with empty hearts
and ask the question why?
Help me know, so I can go on.
How when your love and faith sustained me,
can the precious gift be gone?

From the depths of sorrow I cry
though pains of grief within my soul arise.
The whisperings of the Spirit still my cries.

Didnt He say He sent us to be tested?
Didn't He say the way would not be sure?
But didn't He say we could live with him forever more, well and whole,
if we but patiently endure?
Ater the trial, we will be blessed,
but this life is the test.

Janice Kapp Perry

how much.....

......of ourselves do we give up to make those around us happy? If we give up too much, we loose our identity. We becomes someone that fills others needs. We don't even recognize our own needs, or feel that they are not important.

We forget what makes us happy, or even the feeling of happy. Happiness becomes something we see in others, or try to bring to others.

Maybe its the fear of finding out who we really are, wont be-or meet the expectations of others or ourselves. That somehow it wont be good enough or right.

And maybe, its not even knowing where to start..................yeah, maybe.